It's still chinese new year and we shouldn't have such nasty mood or behaviour but somehow, I really cannot take it. So these are actually screencaps of my twitter profile. The second row is the location column and I've changed it from being in "santa's bag" to "wont bring you there".

 

SO firstly I actually thought of bringing joy to others and making people around me to be happy but that is really not easy and what's the point of making others happy when me myself is really sad and hurt at the way others are treating me? Really, enough is enough. I am here trying to be nice, initiate all the following and stuff, even try talking and there it goes, I got ignored. Not just by 1 or 2 person but many.

 

Friend asked me "why am you being so calculative?why do you care so much?does it really matter?" but hey! This is not about calculating but I thought you actually have a friendly character? Or was it just acting for others to see? Do you really think this is the act of real-ness? Or was it childiness? Seriously, think carefully. And of course this matters to me as I care about the relationship btw us! And what's more when we were once close or even blood-related to some.

 

Don't you guys feel that it's too much? How would you feel if I were to do the same back to you?

 

Bringing joy is actually a really nice and happy thing to do but yea, it dont bring me anywhere if I dont get appraciated or worst, I got reprimanded by these 'real' ppl for being fake. Thanks ah thanks....